BUT... (there's always a but isn't there??!!)
I would not have it any other way. I truly LOVE the time I have with them.... Even during those awful moments that make me want to fling my self across a major interstate, at the height of rush hour, to be run over repeatedly for HOURS, deep down, I really do enjoy it. Each day has been a gift and one that I cherish.
I secretly, love the MOM come wipe my butts, the MOOOM he's touchin mes, the Mooooooooooom!!!! She won't give me the privacy's, the Mooom I'm hungry even though I just finished a meal... You get the idea. I love it all, every aspect, the good, the bad, the fabulous, and the ugly. All of it and I would never trade a single day...
A new page is turning. One that I have been DREADING all YEAR! I can run, but I CANNOT hide. In a few short months, my first baby is going to Kindergarten! How did this happen??!! It seems like yesterday, we were snoozing on the couch because we spent the wee hours, bouncin, shhh-ing, walking, and feeding. It all just seems like a BLUR.
I don't want my baby to go to school ALL DAY LONG! 8:15-3:30 is WAY too long!
Reading, Money, Time, Addition, Subtraction??!! What happened to noodle necklaces, milk and cookies, and if we were really lucky finger painting?
Did I mention the all day thing??!!!
Seriously, I am FREAKING! I know he'll do great, he'll have fun, and he will THRIVE, BUT I just can't fathom only seeing him a few hours each day, which will be spent doing homework, dinner, and baths.... If I'm lucky, I may be able to squeeze in SOMETHING fun if he is somehow still awake....
|him taking a picture of me as I take a picture of him <3|
So, I had tears, but I dried them up... Anthony was on edge. I could tell. He was not his "normal" self. He was shy, grumpy, and stand offish... I could tell he was nervous.
|"I am smiling mom... Ok ok yes its fun..." LIAR LIAR pants on fire lol|
|look at that hand raiser :)|
|my future director needs a bit more pep, but if I know him he will find it after a few days <3|