I can run but I can't hide

I will be the first to admit, my children drive me CRAZY!! The fighting, tattling, whining, crying, on and on ALL day long. Crazy!!! Do I often want to put my head in a hot oven and SLAM the door? ABSOLUTELY!!! I would be lying if I said I didn't!

BUT... (there's always a but isn't there??!!)

I would not have it any other way. I truly LOVE the time I have with them.... Even during those awful moments that make me want to fling my self across a major interstate, at the height of rush hour, to be run over repeatedly for HOURS, deep down, I really do enjoy it.  Each day has been a gift and one that I cherish.

I secretly, love the MOM come wipe my butts, the MOOOM he's touchin mes, the Mooooooooooom!!!! She won't give me the privacy's, the Mooom I'm hungry even though I just finished a meal... You get the idea. I love it all, every aspect, the good, the bad, the fabulous, and the ugly. All of it and I would never trade a single day...

A new page is turning.  One that I have been DREADING all YEAR! I can run, but I CANNOT hide. In a few short months, my first baby is going to Kindergarten! How did this happen??!! It seems like yesterday, we were snoozing on the couch because we spent the wee hours, bouncin, shhh-ing, walking, and feeding. It all just seems like a BLUR.

I don't want my baby to go to school ALL DAY LONG! 8:15-3:30 is WAY too long!

Reading, Money, Time, Addition, Subtraction??!! What happened to noodle necklaces, milk and cookies, and if we were really lucky finger painting?

Did I mention the all day thing??!!!

Seriously, I am FREAKING! I know he'll do great, he'll have fun, and he will THRIVE, BUT I just can't fathom only seeing him a few hours each day, which will be spent doing homework, dinner, and baths.... If I'm lucky, I may be able to squeeze in SOMETHING fun if he is somehow still awake....

him taking a picture of me as I take a picture of him <3

 Monday this page hit me in the face. Kindergarten registration. D-day or as I like to refer to it, K-DAY!! As we parked the car, and rounded the corner, I won't lie, I got choked up and tears started to fill my eyes, but I refrained... I don't want to totally freak him out. His pre-k teacher has already done enough damage... She has the poor kids TERRIFIED of the big kids school. Ant thinks all you do is get into trouble at big kid school.... Oh how I CANNOT wait to get out of HER sandbox, but as usual, I regress....

So, I had tears, but I dried them up... Anthony was on edge. I could tell. He was not his "normal" self. He was shy, grumpy, and stand offish... I could tell he was nervous.

"I am smiling mom... Ok ok yes its fun..." LIAR LIAR pants on fire lol

 However, the school did a FANTASTIC job. I just wish he would have been more enthusiastic. As we come to the front of the building we walked a red carpet, and were treated like A list celebs. They made a HUGE ordeal over each child! LOVE. The school was set up like Hollywood and we traveled from station to station completing the necessary registration things while having fun. They had props, decorations, camera's, prizes, and keepsakes. He even scored a free movie pass :) Once our travels were complete, we left the building, and there sat a uber cool limo, which Ant totally DUG! Of course he snapped a few pics with his snazzy new camera :) It was really nice and the school did a great job getting the kids excited for Kindy. I only wish, I bought into the whole excitement thing... lol

look at that hand raiser :)

After it was all said and done, I asked him if he was excited to go to the big school to which he replied: "yeah! It will be fun. I was just kidding you. I do like Bindergarten!!! hahahah!!" Whatever am I gonna do with him? Do you see why I go crazy!!

my future director needs a bit more pep, but if I know him he will find it after a few days <3

Side bar... CANNOT wait to get his camera developed. It will be neat to see it all through his eyes, plus a few peeps took pictures of us together so I hope at least ONE turns out!!